Impetus

Impetus....I was standing at a dead table at work today and this word popped into my mind. So here we go

Impetus:
Push: The energy or motivation to accomplish or undertake something.

OK....I am again correct ....... I have always liked words and this one meant what I thought it did.

Now, back to the dead table. I was standing there and this word entered my head and I thought this is the word that I will use today in describing my determination to succeed. In my mind, I have to explain what was the impetus or moment that made me determined to lose. It was in the wardrobe department of Harvey's in May, I was trying on uniform shirts. I realized that an extra large woman's shirt would not come close to fitting me...talk about impetus...that was it. AND to add insult to injury, they gave me a men's x-tra large and it did fit.....except for the bottom two buttons that I could not button. OK...now I am ready to confront this lifelong demon. God give me strength and determination!!

Even if I don't lose weight every week and I really haven't the past couple of weeks ( I haven't gained either), I am still working on this project. I want to lose weight and I WILL lose weight...how ever long it takes. Weight is just one component, my main goal is to become healthier. Also I just want to feel good. I also want to look, if not good, reasonable. I want to be strong, I want to be energetic, I want to be good at what I do. Is that too much to ask??

Yesterday, Saturday, I weighed in at 186.4# which is up .2# from last week but that isn't bad considering the really rotten week I had.

OK I was reading my last entry and I have either 8 or 9 days OP...well forget that...today is day 3. I am just appalled at how tough this whole process is. Even though I am determined and don't quit..it is not easy. I know for the rest of my life I will have to fight this problem. I can do that but I just don't want it to continue to be the demon it is today. I want it to be regulated to the same category as tooth brushing or shampooing, you know something you have to do but not the main focus of your day. Does that make sense? Anyway I CAN do this and I WILL do this. Mary..focus...be determined. succeed!!