Like Christmas I am happy this year is over. Isn't that awful? To wish one's like away instead of embracing every moment regardless of what happens? All experiences, good and bad, happy and sad, are what make up our life, our memories, and our mettle.
I mentioned in my last post that I am working on becoming a more postive person so will be doing a lot of reading and study this year. I am coming to believe that weight loss will become a byproduct of living with a postive mindset. That is not to say that eating healthfully and exercising are not also important components -- they most definately are. I almost forgot, my weight this morning was 189.4 and I did 40 minutes of combined yoga and cardio using the Wii Fit Plus. So as I travel through 2010, striving to improve myself and my life, I will share what I am feeling and learning. What I know today is that we all stuggle to make sense of our life and our purpose.
Welcome 2010, I look forward to experiencing every second of you!!
I can, I will!!
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Goodbye Christmas
I am happy Christmas is over. All of those treats everyone was bringing to work were not in my best interest.
Of course that is a crock.....the only person that put food---treats or otherwise in my mouth was me. The time of year doesn't matter, the temptation doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is my mindset and my behavior. Let's just say that neither has been stellar the last 3 weeks. No excuses.....also no positive results, just my usual backsliding.
I have been reading books on the law of attraction and also on having a positive mental attitude and I am going to be working on growing into a more positive person in 2010.
I can and I will!!
Of course that is a crock.....the only person that put food---treats or otherwise in my mouth was me. The time of year doesn't matter, the temptation doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is my mindset and my behavior. Let's just say that neither has been stellar the last 3 weeks. No excuses.....also no positive results, just my usual backsliding.
I have been reading books on the law of attraction and also on having a positive mental attitude and I am going to be working on growing into a more positive person in 2010.
I can and I will!!
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Not Fair, Not Fair!!
So how come you can easily gain 3 or 4 pounds in a day, but are extremely lucky if you lose a pound in one day. In fact losing 1/2 pound in a day is good. It's just not fair, there is a huge disparity between what one can gain versus what one can lose overnight. NOT FAIR, NOT FAIR, NOT FAIR!!
So anyway, I have been working out with the Wii Fit Plus and I actually like it. Is strenuous enough that I sweat so can't be too easy on my. I am hoovering around 191 and 193 but I feel really good and I even feel strong. So I haven't been blogging everyday because I have gained a lot, I just don't have much to say.
There is a blogger I am worried about though....Steve Wright at http://www.whoatemyblog.com/. It has been over a month since he has blogged and I am worried about him. Another blogger is really inspiring me more and more www.priorfatgirl.com , I like her attitude and enjoy her insight about weight lose and life in general. This girl had had to deal with a lot. I admire her.
I am so lucky and have much to be thankful and grateful for.....let me NEVER lose sight of that fact!!
I can, I will!!!
So anyway, I have been working out with the Wii Fit Plus and I actually like it. Is strenuous enough that I sweat so can't be too easy on my. I am hoovering around 191 and 193 but I feel really good and I even feel strong. So I haven't been blogging everyday because I have gained a lot, I just don't have much to say.
There is a blogger I am worried about though....Steve Wright at http://www.whoatemyblog.com/. It has been over a month since he has blogged and I am worried about him. Another blogger is really inspiring me more and more www.priorfatgirl.com , I like her attitude and enjoy her insight about weight lose and life in general. This girl had had to deal with a lot. I admire her.
I am so lucky and have much to be thankful and grateful for.....let me NEVER lose sight of that fact!!
I can, I will!!!
Monday, December 21, 2009
Naughty Mary
I can't believe it is almost a week since I last blogged. Time flies!! I've noticed that I get older, faster, every year.
So I have been working out with Wii Fit Plus over a week. I have not been going to the gym. So how am I doing? I have gone up in weight to a high of 193, this after a low of 187.4. So I have obviously not made any headway on weight but but but....I feel I have bettered my carriage and "fitness" feeling. Does that make sense to anyone? I have not done anything to lose weight as far as eating goes. It's Christmas and I have been eating the usual Christmas treats. But but but-I do feel my posture has improved, I feel I have improved in a lot of ways. So my opinion is: Overall, I am satisfied with the product.
Today my weight was about 191 so I am not on a runaway gaining spree.
I can, I will!!
So I have been working out with Wii Fit Plus over a week. I have not been going to the gym. So how am I doing? I have gone up in weight to a high of 193, this after a low of 187.4. So I have obviously not made any headway on weight but but but....I feel I have bettered my carriage and "fitness" feeling. Does that make sense to anyone? I have not done anything to lose weight as far as eating goes. It's Christmas and I have been eating the usual Christmas treats. But but but-I do feel my posture has improved, I feel I have improved in a lot of ways. So my opinion is: Overall, I am satisfied with the product.
Today my weight was about 191 so I am not on a runaway gaining spree.
I can, I will!!
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Wii Fit Plus
Yesterday I talked about exercise...and today I am talking about the Wii Fit Plus. This found it's way into our house on Friday night.
I have been doing a lot of jogging using the Wii Fit Plus. After jogging I have been doing the strength training and yoga routines. At least I have been getting 30 to 60 minutes of working out everyday since we got it. I haven't explored all of the options it has. I know there is a place to enter your daily steps and I read somewhere that if you have a ball or bands or other equipment you can incorporate it in the Wii routines. I don't know how to do that yet.
I do like very much the record keeping it does and the graphs, they are pretty cool. It also allows you to increase reps or distance or time based on your performance and I think those are very helpful options. Since I have been a gym goer I kind of feel that maybe some of the stuff is a little too slow for me, but I have only been using this for 5 days so I obviously don't know everything about it yet. I will keep working out with it because it is so simple to just get up and do it in my pjs.
These are another pose of my progress pictures, figured I'd better get these up before it is time for more. Although at the rate I am going...January pictures might not be much different than the December one.
I can, I will!!
I have been doing a lot of jogging using the Wii Fit Plus. After jogging I have been doing the strength training and yoga routines. At least I have been getting 30 to 60 minutes of working out everyday since we got it. I haven't explored all of the options it has. I know there is a place to enter your daily steps and I read somewhere that if you have a ball or bands or other equipment you can incorporate it in the Wii routines. I don't know how to do that yet.
I do like very much the record keeping it does and the graphs, they are pretty cool. It also allows you to increase reps or distance or time based on your performance and I think those are very helpful options. Since I have been a gym goer I kind of feel that maybe some of the stuff is a little too slow for me, but I have only been using this for 5 days so I obviously don't know everything about it yet. I will keep working out with it because it is so simple to just get up and do it in my pjs.
I can, I will!!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Exercise
Saturday night I finally got to see the season finale of "The Biggest Loser". It was inspiring, some of those people were not even recognizable. This is not a put down but did you notice how many of the contestants were still overweight? I got to thinking about that and for example, Shay, who lost 175# and is STILL over 300#. I don't care how tall you are 300# is overweight and most likely obese. That was the story with a lot of the contestants...this season had a lot of starting weights in the 300 to 450# range. So even if they lost 100# or more they still have work to do.
I cannot imagine anyone getting that big, but wait maybe I can.
I know why children are becoming more and more obese, they sit on their "behinds" most of the time. In front of the TV or computer. My grandchildren proudly say they are "lazy". When did lazy become desirable? There is no physical activity these days for kids. The statement "go outside and play" is not specific enough. If they do go outside it is mostly to wander aimlessly. I really feel sorry for kids today, unless they have parents that can cart them to sports activities or to a Boys and Girls Club, "Y" or some such place they have nothing to do.
Of course there are other ways to get physical activity....the Wii game is one and I have seen adds for other computer games that require biking or some physical movement. But that really doesn't get it done. Kids could get jobs mowing lawns, snow shoveling, or raking or could they. What are the laws about that stuff these days?
I was very lucky to have grown up on a dairy farm...where they is no sex discrimination or accepted excuses for not do what you are told. When I was in high school, I got up at 4:30 am to milk cows before school. I used to say that if my Dad even thought that the lawn needed mowing, I was out there mowing it. No refusal allowed. It would not have occurred to me to not just do it. Oh I forgot baling hay and straw and shoveling shit. Ya that one wasn't pretty.
So here I am at the ripe old age of 59 and I have to credit my youthful working activity to the fact that I am not lazy and I can and will exercise. Most of my life I have done some type of physical activity, maybe not continuously but I never ever totally quit. The first organized exercise program I remember doing was when I was 16 and I saw an article in Redbook magazine "Six Week Exercise Program". I decided to give it a try and was very dedicated. The reps of each move increased each week and at the end of 6 weeks, what did I do? I stopped doing them.....it was called "Six Week Exercise Program". Sometimes I am just too literal for my own good!!
Oh well enough bs for today.
I can, I will!! (Regards of the bumps along the way)
I cannot imagine anyone getting that big, but wait maybe I can.
I know why children are becoming more and more obese, they sit on their "behinds" most of the time. In front of the TV or computer. My grandchildren proudly say they are "lazy". When did lazy become desirable? There is no physical activity these days for kids. The statement "go outside and play" is not specific enough. If they do go outside it is mostly to wander aimlessly. I really feel sorry for kids today, unless they have parents that can cart them to sports activities or to a Boys and Girls Club, "Y" or some such place they have nothing to do.
Of course there are other ways to get physical activity....the Wii game is one and I have seen adds for other computer games that require biking or some physical movement. But that really doesn't get it done. Kids could get jobs mowing lawns, snow shoveling, or raking or could they. What are the laws about that stuff these days?
I was very lucky to have grown up on a dairy farm...where they is no sex discrimination or accepted excuses for not do what you are told. When I was in high school, I got up at 4:30 am to milk cows before school. I used to say that if my Dad even thought that the lawn needed mowing, I was out there mowing it. No refusal allowed. It would not have occurred to me to not just do it. Oh I forgot baling hay and straw and shoveling shit. Ya that one wasn't pretty.
So here I am at the ripe old age of 59 and I have to credit my youthful working activity to the fact that I am not lazy and I can and will exercise. Most of my life I have done some type of physical activity, maybe not continuously but I never ever totally quit. The first organized exercise program I remember doing was when I was 16 and I saw an article in Redbook magazine "Six Week Exercise Program". I decided to give it a try and was very dedicated. The reps of each move increased each week and at the end of 6 weeks, what did I do? I stopped doing them.....it was called "Six Week Exercise Program". Sometimes I am just too literal for my own good!!
Oh well enough bs for today.
I can, I will!! (Regards of the bumps along the way)
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Promised Report
Yesterday Isaid I would report on how the day went. Today the scale said 190.8 so yup it went down.
So how did yesterday really go? I ate wonderfully and perfectlly UNTIL I got home from work when I screwed up the whole day by eating a small loaf of pear bread. Now I am sure I didn't exceed my calorie count of 1500 but what gives with this sweet downfall? I do recognize this pattern and it is a pattern, my day goes great and then after work at 1, 2, or 3 AM I screw it up.ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!! I need to start going to bed as soon as I get, or brush my teeth, or do SOMETHING that will discourage eating.
As I say each and everyday, I will do better.
I can, I will!!
So how did yesterday really go? I ate wonderfully and perfectlly UNTIL I got home from work when I screwed up the whole day by eating a small loaf of pear bread. Now I am sure I didn't exceed my calorie count of 1500 but what gives with this sweet downfall? I do recognize this pattern and it is a pattern, my day goes great and then after work at 1, 2, or 3 AM I screw it up.ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!! I need to start going to bed as soon as I get, or brush my teeth, or do SOMETHING that will discourage eating.
As I say each and everyday, I will do better.
I can, I will!!
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
It's True!!
I have read on a lot of blog about missing bloggers....it usually means there is a bit of back sliding going on. Well in my case that is very true. I had a horrible week end, I think it started with my baking pear bread. BIG MISTAKE!! It smelled so good and it was warm and inviting and I KNOW it tasted awesome. It's just not fair...the stuff wasn't just calling my name it was SHOUTING my name. So being the weak willed person that I am, I succumbed. How stupid is that?? What happened to "I can, I will"?
Oh well now on to damage control and fixing today because I can only live today. When I quit smoking, I kept telling myself "one day, one hour, one minute, one second". Just hang in there. I hadn't even weighed myself for a couple of days but I did today and it came in at 191.6. It is what it is (another phrase from other blogs).
This morning I went online and looked at all of the "before and after" pictures of the Biggest Loser contestants. If that doesn't inspire me nothing will. All of them look awesome. I only want to lose 40# and these people are dealing with wanting and needing to lose between 100 and 200#. What do I have to whine about? They are totally amazing. I was also watching a couple on the Dr. Oz show this morning that are getting fit for their wedding. In one month she has lost 19# and he lost 23#, they still have lots to lose but they were both so upbeat, happy, and positive, I have no doubt they will be beautiful and very healthy on their wedding day.
I really like Dr. Oz. I have learned a lot watching his show and I like that they go and get people to come on and they help them. Very inspiring and it is wonderful the way most of these people embrace the guidelines they are given. Honestly, I think most people feel so overwhelmed they don't know where to start and also have the attitude that their mountain is so high why bother. Anyway I will be looking forward to keeping up with the wedding couple. I also like The Doctors TV show. They also have taught me a lot, but what can I say--Dr. Oz is Dr. Oz.
So it is back to basics today. I am only going to worry about today. I will report on today tomorrow. Did that sound confusing??
I can, I will!!
Oh well now on to damage control and fixing today because I can only live today. When I quit smoking, I kept telling myself "one day, one hour, one minute, one second". Just hang in there. I hadn't even weighed myself for a couple of days but I did today and it came in at 191.6. It is what it is (another phrase from other blogs).
This morning I went online and looked at all of the "before and after" pictures of the Biggest Loser contestants. If that doesn't inspire me nothing will. All of them look awesome. I only want to lose 40# and these people are dealing with wanting and needing to lose between 100 and 200#. What do I have to whine about? They are totally amazing. I was also watching a couple on the Dr. Oz show this morning that are getting fit for their wedding. In one month she has lost 19# and he lost 23#, they still have lots to lose but they were both so upbeat, happy, and positive, I have no doubt they will be beautiful and very healthy on their wedding day.
I really like Dr. Oz. I have learned a lot watching his show and I like that they go and get people to come on and they help them. Very inspiring and it is wonderful the way most of these people embrace the guidelines they are given. Honestly, I think most people feel so overwhelmed they don't know where to start and also have the attitude that their mountain is so high why bother. Anyway I will be looking forward to keeping up with the wedding couple. I also like The Doctors TV show. They also have taught me a lot, but what can I say--Dr. Oz is Dr. Oz.
So it is back to basics today. I am only going to worry about today. I will report on today tomorrow. Did that sound confusing??
I can, I will!!
Friday, December 04, 2009
More Ugly Pictures
I had Rex take pictures of me yesterday....I really should have had him retake them after I saw them, but what the hell, no one reads this blog anyway. If anyone stumble into this blog by accident--as God is my witness--I am not as crabby as I look, in fact I am not a crabby person at all.
One blog I read (Pasta Queen) put up progress pictures every 20 pounds which makes sense when your goal is to lose approximately 200 pounds. But I don't want to lose that much so I am choosing to put up pictures monthly. Hopefully I will see some progress.
One blog I read (Pasta Queen) put up progress pictures every 20 pounds which makes sense when your goal is to lose approximately 200 pounds. But I don't want to lose that much so I am choosing to put up pictures monthly. Hopefully I will see some progress.
I cannot figure out how to put these pictures side by side so I will have to do it this way and so will you if you want to see them. But the good news is--I DO see progress. Wow, does this make me happy or what!! I had the same three views that I had last time but I will put one up at a time since I can't figure out the side by side thing, otherwise this would be a very long blog.
Did you notice there wasn't a weight listed on the top of this blog...I didn't weigh myself this morning, I did yesterday and it was up to 189.4. Not good news after a low of 187.8 this week. Ok so I was not as dedicated as I should be so the scale is showing me the error of my ways or weighs as it were. Anyway I am back on track and hope to see the scale reflecting that but until that happens progress pictures help!!
I can, I will!!
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
I Survived!!
I made it through the week end!! My Sunday weight was 189.0, my Monday weight was 188.6 and Tuesday morning it was 187.8. WOW I actually lost weight on my week end. Now that is hard to believe but it's totally true. Pat me on the back!!
Have been getting my exercise in also, so I am pretty happy with my progress. I will keep it up.
I can, I will!!
Have been getting my exercise in also, so I am pretty happy with my progress. I will keep it up.
I can, I will!!
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Once Again
This morning my scale said 189.0....that is two (2) days out of the 190s. I am blessed!!
My trip to the gym yesterday made my third gym workout this week....my goal reached for once! Today I walked outside in the wind. The wind makes it more of a workout. I felt a little under worked so I decided to do an exercise video. I chose "YOU: On A Diet Workout". I have had this video for maybe two years, maybe more, don't remember. It has beginner, intermediate, and advanced routines on it. I did the beginner and was able to keep up without a problem, so I decided to watch the intermediate. I think after 3 or 4 times of the beginner I can do that with no problem also.
This is a day off so traditionally a dangerous day for me but I have managed to keep the caloric intake in check. Of course tomorrow is also a day but I am feeling in control for the time being. Am actually looking forward to the times when all I have to bitch about is maintenance!!
I can, I will!!
My trip to the gym yesterday made my third gym workout this week....my goal reached for once! Today I walked outside in the wind. The wind makes it more of a workout. I felt a little under worked so I decided to do an exercise video. I chose "YOU: On A Diet Workout". I have had this video for maybe two years, maybe more, don't remember. It has beginner, intermediate, and advanced routines on it. I did the beginner and was able to keep up without a problem, so I decided to watch the intermediate. I think after 3 or 4 times of the beginner I can do that with no problem also.
This is a day off so traditionally a dangerous day for me but I have managed to keep the caloric intake in check. Of course tomorrow is also a day but I am feeling in control for the time being. Am actually looking forward to the times when all I have to bitch about is maintenance!!
I can, I will!!
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Take That!!
This morning my stubborn scale read 189.2!!! I am thrilled and committed to not having it bounce back to the 190s again....of course I have the next 2 days off of work which is always challenging to me. Just have to keep repeating my chant "I think I can, I think I can". Like the little red engine that could.
I went to the gym this afternoon for about an hour. I had to cut it short as I have to go to work and had some stuff to do at home that I could not put off. But at least I went, in past weeks I have blown it off if I felt rushed but I hung in there today. PAT MARY ON THE BACK!!
Have had success with my calorie range this week so far too. I have bumped up the protein and I think that has been helpful. I feel in the zone today....
I can, I will!!
I went to the gym this afternoon for about an hour. I had to cut it short as I have to go to work and had some stuff to do at home that I could not put off. But at least I went, in past weeks I have blown it off if I felt rushed but I hung in there today. PAT MARY ON THE BACK!!
Have had success with my calorie range this week so far too. I have bumped up the protein and I think that has been helpful. I feel in the zone today....
I can, I will!!
Friday, November 27, 2009
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr--that is my growl at the scale this morning. You know the one that really hates to go below 190...the one that showed my weight this morning at 190.0?? That one. Yup that one. What is with that barrier? Ok so now I have that off my chest and am ready to make today a good healthy one.
I called this morning to get a hair cut and after making an appointment for 2 this afternoon, realized the traffic I would have to fight with the "Black Friday" crowd, called back and changed the appointment to Monday. Good catch, Mary!!
My physical activity of the day will be a long outside walk...for the first time in 4 days we don't have strong winds so I am going to take advantage of the nice weather. It is also a nice 76 degrees, another reason to enjoy the weather.
I can, I will!!
I called this morning to get a hair cut and after making an appointment for 2 this afternoon, realized the traffic I would have to fight with the "Black Friday" crowd, called back and changed the appointment to Monday. Good catch, Mary!!
My physical activity of the day will be a long outside walk...for the first time in 4 days we don't have strong winds so I am going to take advantage of the nice weather. It is also a nice 76 degrees, another reason to enjoy the weather.
I can, I will!!
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Happy Thanksgiving!!
A big "Happy Thanksgiving" to every one today. It truly is a time to be thankful for the people in our lives that make life worthwhile. I read a sign on the outside of a church the other day that said "Thanksgiving means more if you R thankful". Makes sense to me!!
Today's weigh in was 190.4. Being hopeful the dip into the 180s tomorrow, I went to the gym and did 52 minutes of cardio and some stretching. My cardio goal for the day was 40 minutes so I even put in a little extra time. I sure hope it works. I have noticed that I always learn a lot when I go to the gym just watching what others are doing. Lots of times I end up incorporating those same moves into my routine. My Dad always said "pay attention, you might learn something". How right he was!!
I will be gong to work today, when you work in the gaming industry getting a holiday off is nearly impossible.
Besides I don't have any family here so going to work is ok, I am very thankful that I have a job to go to.
Yesterday's calorie count was in the range, the only problem was I was VERY hungry, so today I am keeping track of my protein intake. Based on what I have been reading lately, I might not be eating enough protein so am going to increase how much I eat.
My attitude today, like yesterday is hopeful and upbeat.
I can, I will!!
Today's weigh in was 190.4. Being hopeful the dip into the 180s tomorrow, I went to the gym and did 52 minutes of cardio and some stretching. My cardio goal for the day was 40 minutes so I even put in a little extra time. I sure hope it works. I have noticed that I always learn a lot when I go to the gym just watching what others are doing. Lots of times I end up incorporating those same moves into my routine. My Dad always said "pay attention, you might learn something". How right he was!!
I will be gong to work today, when you work in the gaming industry getting a holiday off is nearly impossible.
Besides I don't have any family here so going to work is ok, I am very thankful that I have a job to go to.
Yesterday's calorie count was in the range, the only problem was I was VERY hungry, so today I am keeping track of my protein intake. Based on what I have been reading lately, I might not be eating enough protein so am going to increase how much I eat.
My attitude today, like yesterday is hopeful and upbeat.
I can, I will!!
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Start Of Week Four
Today starts week 4 and I am off to a good start. My weight this morning was 191.6. I spent 1.5 hours at the gym and it felt great. Today while doing my weight training I actually looked at myself in the numerous mirrors. I could see improvement in my waist. My thighs also looked a lot more toned and thinner, of course I didn't measure my thighs but there was a lot of leg room in my shorts. On my way home, I was thinking about how great I felt and how much I do enjoy working out and going to the gym. So why don't I just hop out of bed every day and go?? Wish I could give an answer to that question but I just don't know what it is....however I will be thinking hard about that very issue.
So how did week 3 go. Down the crapper I think. Maybe I should quit making weekly goals since I don't seem to be able to meet them. But I am going to give it another try.
1200 to 1500 calories per day....no exceptions!!
Physical activity.....3 trips to the gym...no excuses!!
I'll let you know next Wednesday how this works out.
I can, I will!!
So how did week 3 go. Down the crapper I think. Maybe I should quit making weekly goals since I don't seem to be able to meet them. But I am going to give it another try.
1200 to 1500 calories per day....no exceptions!!
Physical activity.....3 trips to the gym...no excuses!!
I'll let you know next Wednesday how this works out.
I can, I will!!
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Binge!!
OK so this morning I weighed 192.4. I wonder if that was due to the cookies and peanuts I ate last night??
I am so disgusted with myself!! Will I never learn???
Today I am eating very lightly but didn't exercise yet anyway.
Tomorrow is another day and I intend to get it right!!
I can, I will!!
I am so disgusted with myself!! Will I never learn???
Today I am eating very lightly but didn't exercise yet anyway.
Tomorrow is another day and I intend to get it right!!
I can, I will!!
Monday, November 23, 2009
Another Week End Almost Gone...
After that great weigh in of 189.8, I bounced right back up to 190.4 the next day, then 191.0 ever since. I knew there would be a bounce back....always seems to be one. Just have to hang in there until the scale decides to cooperate. I was trying to give myself some non-scale encouragement, so I decided to measure my waist and see if there was any change. To my utter delight, I have lost 3 inches off my waist and 1.5 inches off my hips since August. Unfortunately, my chest measurement was not changed. But I am happy and as everyone knows there is more than one way to measure weight loss progress.
I have been fighting my weight my whole life. Yup, I was a chubby kid and wore the chubby sizes to prove it. There have been times in my life when I have been reasonable and in the overweight category instead of obese. My all time high weight was 223 about 20 years ago. I lost weight then and have never gotten to that high of a weight again. That is suppose to be unusual. When people lose and regain, they usually regain more than they lost. I really think I didn't because I am pretty physically active and have almost always walked and worked out in one fashion or another. Unless I am going more than 4 floors up, I always take the stairs, I park far away from entrances, I always return my grocery cart...I really do all of those little things they recommend you do. My worst problem is a bad habit of overeating. And even that is not the like you would expect. I eat a very healthy diet, lots of fruits and vegetables, whole grains, lean meats (mostly chicken and pork, very little beef), fish and nuts. So why am I fat?? I love candy and sweets and indulge way too much. I don't think there is enough candy in the world to satisfy me. And you can also eat too much of the healthy stuff. Portion control is important no matter what the food is.
I am going to be 60 in April and would really like to finally tame this beast!! You have no idea how much I wish I would have gotten this horrible problem under control 30 years ago. Maybe my children would be in a different place.
Not only am I an obese person, I am the mother of a 41 year old morbidly obese man. In fact he is well on the way to becoming the next person you read about in the paper that cannot fit through the door. At least that is my fear of what will happen to him. I feel that I have more or less set him up for this problem from the time he was a chubby baby. I overfed him and helped him develop every damn fat cell he has. I wish I could undo that damage.
I also have a daughter that is obese, but not morbidly yet anyway. I was a terrible mother and I cannot change history so they are paying the price. Not quite fair that they are paying for my rotten choices.
I have been fighting my weight my whole life. Yup, I was a chubby kid and wore the chubby sizes to prove it. There have been times in my life when I have been reasonable and in the overweight category instead of obese. My all time high weight was 223 about 20 years ago. I lost weight then and have never gotten to that high of a weight again. That is suppose to be unusual. When people lose and regain, they usually regain more than they lost. I really think I didn't because I am pretty physically active and have almost always walked and worked out in one fashion or another. Unless I am going more than 4 floors up, I always take the stairs, I park far away from entrances, I always return my grocery cart...I really do all of those little things they recommend you do. My worst problem is a bad habit of overeating. And even that is not the like you would expect. I eat a very healthy diet, lots of fruits and vegetables, whole grains, lean meats (mostly chicken and pork, very little beef), fish and nuts. So why am I fat?? I love candy and sweets and indulge way too much. I don't think there is enough candy in the world to satisfy me. And you can also eat too much of the healthy stuff. Portion control is important no matter what the food is.
I am going to be 60 in April and would really like to finally tame this beast!! You have no idea how much I wish I would have gotten this horrible problem under control 30 years ago. Maybe my children would be in a different place.
Not only am I an obese person, I am the mother of a 41 year old morbidly obese man. In fact he is well on the way to becoming the next person you read about in the paper that cannot fit through the door. At least that is my fear of what will happen to him. I feel that I have more or less set him up for this problem from the time he was a chubby baby. I overfed him and helped him develop every damn fat cell he has. I wish I could undo that damage.
I also have a daughter that is obese, but not morbidly yet anyway. I was a terrible mother and I cannot change history so they are paying the price. Not quite fair that they are paying for my rotten choices.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Breakthrough!!
Day 3
So far I am liking week 3. I weighed in this morning at 189.8---I finally broke the 190 barrier and barrier it has been!! I know tomorrow I could bounce right back, but I loved seeing that 8 today!!
Eating yesterday was A-OK and I was very satisfied.
I am seriously addicted to Diet Pepsi and I am seriously thinking about quitting drinking it. I know I can't cut down, I have to have zero because I am not a just cut down type of person. When it comes to Diet Pepsi, it is all or nothing. I am thinking.
Today I will just keep on, keeping on.
I can, I will!!
So far I am liking week 3. I weighed in this morning at 189.8---I finally broke the 190 barrier and barrier it has been!! I know tomorrow I could bounce right back, but I loved seeing that 8 today!!
Eating yesterday was A-OK and I was very satisfied.
I am seriously addicted to Diet Pepsi and I am seriously thinking about quitting drinking it. I know I can't cut down, I have to have zero because I am not a just cut down type of person. When it comes to Diet Pepsi, it is all or nothing. I am thinking.
Today I will just keep on, keeping on.
I can, I will!!
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Start Of Week Three
Day 2
Today is Wednesday so it is the beginning of week 3. First I should recap week 2. Did I maintain the 1200 to 1500 calorie range each day-NO. For one and one half days I did not. Did I make it to the gym three times-NO. I went to the gym once, and did a fair amount of walking outside. So I wasn't a complete physical failure.
Oh I forgot to state what I weigh today, 191.0. So in two weeks I have lost 8 pounds which is not that great since I think I lost 9 pounds in 1 week!! What the hell happened??? I knew the 9 pounds in one week would bite me in the ass!!
I am back in the range and even went to the gym today. I did cardio and weight training so week 3 is off to a good start. I don't know if I should even make weekly goals since I didn't meet them this week. I am going to continue with the calorie range (this weeks football games are on at the same time so I will be able to stick with water) and I am going to do something physical at least 1/2 hour a day. Not necessarily at the gym.
I can, I will!!
Today is Wednesday so it is the beginning of week 3. First I should recap week 2. Did I maintain the 1200 to 1500 calorie range each day-NO. For one and one half days I did not. Did I make it to the gym three times-NO. I went to the gym once, and did a fair amount of walking outside. So I wasn't a complete physical failure.
Oh I forgot to state what I weigh today, 191.0. So in two weeks I have lost 8 pounds which is not that great since I think I lost 9 pounds in 1 week!! What the hell happened??? I knew the 9 pounds in one week would bite me in the ass!!
I am back in the range and even went to the gym today. I did cardio and weight training so week 3 is off to a good start. I don't know if I should even make weekly goals since I didn't meet them this week. I am going to continue with the calorie range (this weeks football games are on at the same time so I will be able to stick with water) and I am going to do something physical at least 1/2 hour a day. Not necessarily at the gym.
I can, I will!!
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Week End Gone Bad!
Sunday was not a good day for my calorie count. The first mistake I made was having a cocktail which led to two more. That more or less did it for me. On Sundays we go to a sports bar to watch football with another couple. Last Sunday I drank water the whole time, unfortunately this Sunday there was two games to watch which extended the time there from three hours to 5.5. That is way too long to sit there while everyone else is drinking and sip on water the whole time, although I did until half time of the second time. I just got really tired of water.
Then we had a fellow Wisconsinite that I work with that brought us home made potato dumplings. So we had those with pork chops for supper. The dumplings were a little dry so we had some gravy with them. I wasn't satisfied with all of that so after supper I had some cookies. Not good....I didn't even try to add up all of the calories. Yesterday was marginally better. Actually yesterday was ok, we made home made chicken noodle soup which makes it hard to accurately calculate the calorie count. I had two cups of the soup but didn't eat much else so it was ok.
I didn't weigh myself yesterday because I was just plain chicken...today I weighed 191.4. I consider myself lucky. Tomorrow starts week three and I will do better.
I can, I will!!
Then we had a fellow Wisconsinite that I work with that brought us home made potato dumplings. So we had those with pork chops for supper. The dumplings were a little dry so we had some gravy with them. I wasn't satisfied with all of that so after supper I had some cookies. Not good....I didn't even try to add up all of the calories. Yesterday was marginally better. Actually yesterday was ok, we made home made chicken noodle soup which makes it hard to accurately calculate the calorie count. I had two cups of the soup but didn't eat much else so it was ok.
I didn't weigh myself yesterday because I was just plain chicken...today I weighed 191.4. I consider myself lucky. Tomorrow starts week three and I will do better.
I can, I will!!
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Danger--Another Week End
Day 12
Yesterday I was up to 191.2# and I didn't make it to the gym. Friday night was so busy at work I ended up working 2 hours overtime. That means I worked until 6 AM. Since I worked so late, I slept all day so no trip to the gym. I know, it sucks....but that is the true story. And obviously I didn't blog either because I was sleeping. Anyway this morning I weighed in at 191.0.
I work nights but my schedule changes every week. This past week, I had four 7PM starts and one 5 PM start. Now seeing that two hour difference doesn't seem like it is that much, it really is when I struggle with sleep. I don't like to sleep during the daylight hours but am forced to sleep most mornings (when I can) so I only sleep 5 or 6 hours a day and am always tired. Big surprise there. This upcoming week I have three 5PM starts and two 7PM starts. Always. always adjusting, makes things hard. (But not impossible!!) And who knows what kind of schedule I will have next?? Neither do I. No I am in another week-end and they are typically very challenging, but like last week, I intend to make it through to the other side on track.
On the up side, I have maintained my chosen calorie range, and have not gotten discouraged in spite of the scale going up. I have to credit PastaQueen (http://www.pastaqueen.com/) with that. I have been reading her blog, well to to precise I have been reading her archives because when someone has lost almost 200 pounds without surgery, you want to start at the beginning. She was always so patient when the scale would bounce a little. Reading about her patience gives me pause and makes me understand that the scale is not the be all, end all and I can wait it out too. While I didn't take my measurements 12 days ago, I did take them on August 21 so I have recent ones, and I am appalled by them. As I sit typing this I have Dr. Oz on and a Discovery Channel program about "You:On A Diet". A healthy waist size for women is 32" or less. Guess what mine is?? 43.5, enough said about that. I definitely have my work cut out for me and I am realizing that the scale is not the only yardstick here!!
I can, I will!!
Yesterday I was up to 191.2# and I didn't make it to the gym. Friday night was so busy at work I ended up working 2 hours overtime. That means I worked until 6 AM. Since I worked so late, I slept all day so no trip to the gym. I know, it sucks....but that is the true story. And obviously I didn't blog either because I was sleeping. Anyway this morning I weighed in at 191.0.
I work nights but my schedule changes every week. This past week, I had four 7PM starts and one 5 PM start. Now seeing that two hour difference doesn't seem like it is that much, it really is when I struggle with sleep. I don't like to sleep during the daylight hours but am forced to sleep most mornings (when I can) so I only sleep 5 or 6 hours a day and am always tired. Big surprise there. This upcoming week I have three 5PM starts and two 7PM starts. Always. always adjusting, makes things hard. (But not impossible!!) And who knows what kind of schedule I will have next?? Neither do I. No I am in another week-end and they are typically very challenging, but like last week, I intend to make it through to the other side on track.
On the up side, I have maintained my chosen calorie range, and have not gotten discouraged in spite of the scale going up. I have to credit PastaQueen (http://www.pastaqueen.com/) with that. I have been reading her blog, well to to precise I have been reading her archives because when someone has lost almost 200 pounds without surgery, you want to start at the beginning. She was always so patient when the scale would bounce a little. Reading about her patience gives me pause and makes me understand that the scale is not the be all, end all and I can wait it out too. While I didn't take my measurements 12 days ago, I did take them on August 21 so I have recent ones, and I am appalled by them. As I sit typing this I have Dr. Oz on and a Discovery Channel program about "You:On A Diet". A healthy waist size for women is 32" or less. Guess what mine is?? 43.5, enough said about that. I definitely have my work cut out for me and I am realizing that the scale is not the only yardstick here!!
I can, I will!!
Friday, November 13, 2009
Road Block
Day 10
Ok so I knew it had to happen...the scale went up 1# today. I was living in a fools paradise with a 8.2# loss in one week, but I really liked it. Even knowing it was totally unrealistic, I really liked it. Ok, Ok I am now reminded weight loss is not that easy or fast. Point taken.
Yesterday I did not take a 15 minute walk. I was still feeling under the weather so I took a nap instead. That was actually a good idea because about 2 hours after I got to work I started feeling substantially better. Not perfect but pretty damn good. So today I made it to the gym for a short visit. I did 16 minutes on the elliptical and 16 minutes on the treadmill. Just cardio today. Tomorrow I plan to do some weight training also.
I have been staying in the caloric range so I am happy about that. In the past I would have gone over by now. The big 60 birthday that is rapidly approaching is foremost in my mind. I don't want to screw this up and I want to be have a "normal" BMI by then. Each year you live, health becomes more and more important. Your body is pretty forgiving to some of the abuse one inflicts on it, but the older you get the less forgiving it is. The younger you learn this lesson, the better your chances of having a healthy, long life.
I can,I will!!
Ok so I knew it had to happen...the scale went up 1# today. I was living in a fools paradise with a 8.2# loss in one week, but I really liked it. Even knowing it was totally unrealistic, I really liked it. Ok, Ok I am now reminded weight loss is not that easy or fast. Point taken.
Yesterday I did not take a 15 minute walk. I was still feeling under the weather so I took a nap instead. That was actually a good idea because about 2 hours after I got to work I started feeling substantially better. Not perfect but pretty damn good. So today I made it to the gym for a short visit. I did 16 minutes on the elliptical and 16 minutes on the treadmill. Just cardio today. Tomorrow I plan to do some weight training also.
I have been staying in the caloric range so I am happy about that. In the past I would have gone over by now. The big 60 birthday that is rapidly approaching is foremost in my mind. I don't want to screw this up and I want to be have a "normal" BMI by then. Each year you live, health becomes more and more important. Your body is pretty forgiving to some of the abuse one inflicts on it, but the older you get the less forgiving it is. The younger you learn this lesson, the better your chances of having a healthy, long life.
I can,I will!!
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Hanging In There
Day 9
Yesterday I was actually under my calorie count because I was sick. I even called into work which is something I rarely do. I feel better today and will go to work but still do not feel the best. This mornings weight was 190.0. I plan to walk for at least 15 minutes today....need to "go slow" for a day or two. Maybe that is wrong, maybe this is the time to push myself. Guess I need to find out about that.
I can, I will!!
Yesterday I was actually under my calorie count because I was sick. I even called into work which is something I rarely do. I feel better today and will go to work but still do not feel the best. This mornings weight was 190.0. I plan to walk for at least 15 minutes today....need to "go slow" for a day or two. Maybe that is wrong, maybe this is the time to push myself. Guess I need to find out about that.
I can, I will!!
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Week One
Day 8
This is Veteran's Day, you know the 11th day of the 11th month, and originally the 11th hour. My sincere thank you to all of our service people, both retired and active. I truly appreciate all of the sacrifices you have made so I can live the life I do in a country that is still free.
Ok so I have one week down, of the 21 weeks until my birthday in April. This morning I weighed 190.8 which is 8.2# less than last week. About six weeks ago, I weighed in at 190.2 and immediately ballooned back up to 199. The scale has never been my friend, but I intend not to waste this 8.2# gift I have earned by maintaining the daily calorie count I have chosen. I know that an 8.2# loss in 7 days in not something I can count on every week so this weeks challenge will be not to gain anything back, continue with my daily calorie count, and get to the gym at least 3 times this week.
I have not talked much about physical activity yet but I do work out. Some weeks I get to the gym 4 times and then I might not get there more than once the next week so I have to work on a regular schedule, but exercise has never been my problem, it has always been overeating. But the odd thing is that I eat very, very well. I do lots of fruits and veggies, not a lot of meat, whole grains, etc. But after I eat very healthfully, I eat candy and pastries. I have come the the conclusion that there is not enough candy in the world to satisfy me. Sugar, sugar, lovely sugar. Yuck!!
Anyway that is about all I have to say today.
I can, I will!!
This is Veteran's Day, you know the 11th day of the 11th month, and originally the 11th hour. My sincere thank you to all of our service people, both retired and active. I truly appreciate all of the sacrifices you have made so I can live the life I do in a country that is still free.
Ok so I have one week down, of the 21 weeks until my birthday in April. This morning I weighed 190.8 which is 8.2# less than last week. About six weeks ago, I weighed in at 190.2 and immediately ballooned back up to 199. The scale has never been my friend, but I intend not to waste this 8.2# gift I have earned by maintaining the daily calorie count I have chosen. I know that an 8.2# loss in 7 days in not something I can count on every week so this weeks challenge will be not to gain anything back, continue with my daily calorie count, and get to the gym at least 3 times this week.
I have not talked much about physical activity yet but I do work out. Some weeks I get to the gym 4 times and then I might not get there more than once the next week so I have to work on a regular schedule, but exercise has never been my problem, it has always been overeating. But the odd thing is that I eat very, very well. I do lots of fruits and veggies, not a lot of meat, whole grains, etc. But after I eat very healthfully, I eat candy and pastries. I have come the the conclusion that there is not enough candy in the world to satisfy me. Sugar, sugar, lovely sugar. Yuck!!
Anyway that is about all I have to say today.
I can, I will!!
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
I Made It!!
I survived my days off. I stayed in my daily calorie range and didn't overeat. Of course the fact that I have a sore throat, runny nose, and bad cold didn't factor in at all. Yesterday I weighed in at 193.4 and this morning it was 191.8, definitely back to the range I was in before my vacation.
I got my match up e-mail from mizfit yesterday. That will be cool. Today I will get an e-mail with more info as to how this will work. As I understand it, you are matched up with someone else that wants to lose some pounds and will motivate each other with e-mails. I am looking forward to having a virtual weight loss buddy.
Anyway outside of my cold I am very happy and feel powerful. This week I should hit new numbers and be under 190 for the first time in about 2 years. That will be great, my goal for Dec.31 is 180# and a BMI that will put me in the overweight category rather than obese.
I can, I will!!
I got my match up e-mail from mizfit yesterday. That will be cool. Today I will get an e-mail with more info as to how this will work. As I understand it, you are matched up with someone else that wants to lose some pounds and will motivate each other with e-mails. I am looking forward to having a virtual weight loss buddy.
Anyway outside of my cold I am very happy and feel powerful. This week I should hit new numbers and be under 190 for the first time in about 2 years. That will be great, my goal for Dec.31 is 180# and a BMI that will put me in the overweight category rather than obese.
I can, I will!!
Sunday, November 08, 2009
Weekend Challenge
Ok so my two days off for this week start today. This is always a challenge because too much free time leads to too much food. Just a fact of most of my life. I also like to have a cocktail or two on my days off. That equation adds up to danger. Lots of time my efforts of the rest of the week are totally wiped out by these two days that I don't go to work. So that is my challenge for the next two days....maintain and follow my daily calorie goal.
This morning I weighed 193.8 and it is day number 5 of this journey. I know that this incredible daily weight loss is not going to continue but I am sort of liking it. I've decided to mention what day number it is for continuous calorie goal, that might help not to screw it up so I don't have to start over with day 1. Time will tell as it always does and in this case so will the pictures. Intake so far:
Wed: 940
Thurs: 1470
Fri: 1350
Sat: 1365
I am happy with that because I haven't really been unbearably hungry so that helps a lot. Makes it easier to not be tempted. I know it is closer to 1500 calories than 1200 but still in the range I have chosen.
I can, I will
This morning I weighed 193.8 and it is day number 5 of this journey. I know that this incredible daily weight loss is not going to continue but I am sort of liking it. I've decided to mention what day number it is for continuous calorie goal, that might help not to screw it up so I don't have to start over with day 1. Time will tell as it always does and in this case so will the pictures. Intake so far:
Wed: 940
Thurs: 1470
Fri: 1350
Sat: 1365
I am happy with that because I haven't really been unbearably hungry so that helps a lot. Makes it easier to not be tempted. I know it is closer to 1500 calories than 1200 but still in the range I have chosen.
I can, I will
Saturday, November 07, 2009
That's It
I have been reading lots and lots of weight loss blogs. No one has an easy time with this struggle. One of the hardest things is getting started. One blogger actually started her blog in late 2003 but didn't get serious about a lifestyle change until 2005. I totally understand that. It does something to your mind to feel that you can't have that last food binge before starting a diet. You know what I mean, the days before "Monday" that you eat everything you want because come Monday (or Jan 1, or whatever) you are to start your diet and all of those goodies will be out of the question. But we all know that Monday, like tomorrow never comes. Getting started is hard, hard, hard,
I don't know what the trigger is, it is different for everyone. I just know that for now I have found mine.
I can, I will!!
I don't know what the trigger is, it is different for everyone. I just know that for now I have found mine.
I can, I will!!
Yes
I did do much better with caloric intake yesterday and didn't deviate from my plan at all. Yeah for me!! Although I don't intend to weigh myself everyday I have been this week because I was so distressed about the 199.0 number on my scale. This morning it said 194.8 so I am almost where I was before I went on vacation. I need to make this work.
I went on the Prevention site today to figure out my current BMI. It is 31.64 which is in the obese category. No surprise there!! So I figured out the the weight I need to be to get in the overweight category, that weight is 185#. That is 9.8# and very doable by Dec. 31. That is my short term goal...to weigh 185 and have a BMI of 29.86 by the end of 2009. Now a long term goal is to have a normal BMI by April 7th -my 60th birthday. I just counted up and that is 21 weeks away so at the rate of 2 pounds per week that is doable!! Lets state this goal here in black and white. By April 7, 2010 I want to weigh 153 pounds and have a BMI of 24.7 which is in the normal range. So I guess with that statement, I need to readjust my Dec. 31 goal--which is now 180.8 with a BMI of 29.21.
I can, I will!!
I went on the Prevention site today to figure out my current BMI. It is 31.64 which is in the obese category. No surprise there!! So I figured out the the weight I need to be to get in the overweight category, that weight is 185#. That is 9.8# and very doable by Dec. 31. That is my short term goal...to weigh 185 and have a BMI of 29.86 by the end of 2009. Now a long term goal is to have a normal BMI by April 7th -my 60th birthday. I just counted up and that is 21 weeks away so at the rate of 2 pounds per week that is doable!! Lets state this goal here in black and white. By April 7, 2010 I want to weigh 153 pounds and have a BMI of 24.7 which is in the normal range. So I guess with that statement, I need to readjust my Dec. 31 goal--which is now 180.8 with a BMI of 29.21.
I can, I will!!
Friday, November 06, 2009
Already?
Remember my goal of staying between 1200 and 1500 calories a day? Well I didn't exceed it yesterday but came damn close. I had all of my food written down and packed (I take my lunch to work) to total 1220 calories. But in the break room a key lime pie appeared and I picked up a piece and ate it. Why oh why do I do this to myself??? I need to get to the root of this compulsion to eat whatever I see. It is taking a terrible toll on my body. Since I ate the pie, I didn't eat everything in my lunch so I got to a count of 1470, so technically I stayed with my goal but I am still upset about my "see it, eat it" compulsion.
I did weight myself this morning although I wasn't going to. I weighed 196.6 this morning...which is progress but maybe false hope. Don't know.
I hate the pictures of myself on this blog!!!!!
One day soon I am going to write down some things about myself and the lifestyle I live.
I am off to the gym and going to have a better food day today!!
I can, I will!!
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I did weight myself this morning although I wasn't going to. I weighed 196.6 this morning...which is progress but maybe false hope. Don't know.
I hate the pictures of myself on this blog!!!!!
One day soon I am going to write down some things about myself and the lifestyle I live.
I am off to the gym and going to have a better food day today!!
I can, I will!!
'
Thursday, November 05, 2009
Photos-Yuck
These are my pictures that were taken yesterday and I can honestly say I am appalled. And I have to acknowledge that I have not seen myself from these angles for many, many years. I have a lot of work to do but I am up for the challenge. This is the worst it will be.....
One of the bloggers I read, put up progress pictures every 20 pounds, I think I will do it monthly and hope to see visible results although I do know that I have to lose 30 pounds before it is noticeable....been down this road before.
I weighed myself this morning...197.4. Better than 199 but I am still disappointed in myself. Anyway onward and downward..
I am blogging about this because I need an accountability factor and from what I have been reading, so do a lot of other people. At this point I am going to state weekly goals. I will make a weekly food goal and a weekly fitness goal usually, but to get the ball rolling this week I am only making one goal. It is to keep my caloric intake between 1200 and 1500 daily. Yesterday I fell short at 950. Don't know how that happened, I think I forgot to put something down. But I will be vigilant today.
I can, I will!!
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Why Now?
I have been reading numerous blogs of weight loose journeys. These people understand how simple it is. A numbers game: calories in/calories out or move more/eat less.
So what screws us all up?? Why isn't is as easy as that sounds?? What is the answer??
All of these blogs are so inspiring. They literally talk about the food relationships, the emotions, the monumental effort it takes to resist cravings. Cravings are so cruel.....they are nonstop daily, hourly, and minutely. The temptations never go away.
I have also noticed on some of the older blogs (from 2004) that these people are loosing the weight and their blog now contains other topics. I am hopeful that once weight is not the sole and total focus of my life, it becomes possible to have a life that allows other interests in it. Now that is incentive!!
Today is Wednesday and I am posting this but it is not the starting blog entry I wanted it to be. Quite frankly it is because I just got back from vacation yesterday and I am fried. I have a lot to do today and also have to get back to work so I don't have the time to take my starting pictures, etc,etc, etc. Are you buying this bullshit??? No the real reason is-----I weighed 8 pounds more this morning than I expected to and am pissed with myself. Oh well the scale said 199.0 this morning which honest to God I have not been this high in at least 6 months. I have been hoovering between 190.2 and 194 for the last 6 months so I am pouting today...something that really helps!!
Oh well tomorrow is another day!!
So what screws us all up?? Why isn't is as easy as that sounds?? What is the answer??
All of these blogs are so inspiring. They literally talk about the food relationships, the emotions, the monumental effort it takes to resist cravings. Cravings are so cruel.....they are nonstop daily, hourly, and minutely. The temptations never go away.
I have also noticed on some of the older blogs (from 2004) that these people are loosing the weight and their blog now contains other topics. I am hopeful that once weight is not the sole and total focus of my life, it becomes possible to have a life that allows other interests in it. Now that is incentive!!
Today is Wednesday and I am posting this but it is not the starting blog entry I wanted it to be. Quite frankly it is because I just got back from vacation yesterday and I am fried. I have a lot to do today and also have to get back to work so I don't have the time to take my starting pictures, etc,etc, etc. Are you buying this bullshit??? No the real reason is-----I weighed 8 pounds more this morning than I expected to and am pissed with myself. Oh well the scale said 199.0 this morning which honest to God I have not been this high in at least 6 months. I have been hoovering between 190.2 and 194 for the last 6 months so I am pouting today...something that really helps!!
Oh well tomorrow is another day!!
Friday, October 30, 2009
I CAN, I WILL!!
As I am writing this I am actually pursing my lips and blowing the dust off this blog. I've decided to write a weight loss blog because I have been reading so many of them lately and thought maybe it would work for me too.
Right now I am on vacation in Belize, but will be back in my real life Tuesday so, starting Wednesday, I am going to be working on becoming as healthy as I can.
See ya Wednesday!!
I can, I will!!
Right now I am on vacation in Belize, but will be back in my real life Tuesday so, starting Wednesday, I am going to be working on becoming as healthy as I can.
See ya Wednesday!!
I can, I will!!
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