In Control

Last week, I felt strong and in control.  I was superwoman, I couldn't be tempted by mere food, I worked out a lot.  I was strong......this week....not so much.

What is the difference?  I don't have TOM  anymore so that isn't it.  The weather is great, sunny and warm, so that isn't depressing me.  What is making me feel like I am spinning out of control and overeating?  I have only gained 2 pounds so I haven't gone over the moon but I still feel disappointed in myself for backsliding at all.  I absolutely hate to have to loose the same pounds over and over.  Talk about inefficient.

This is like fighting a war.  You can never relax your vigilance.  It's why maintaining weight loss is so hard because you are never finished.  It  also is not easy to commit, because real success is committment  FOREVER!!! Not only that, I have become comfortable with a 20# weight loss.  Not at all logical.....if 20# feels this much better, how incredible will 30#, 40#, or 50# feel?  I have to really fight to not lose sight of the ultimate goal.  THIS SHIT NEVER ENDS!!  Frustration is running rampant within me.  I've decided to go back and read some of my previous blogs to re-motivate myself and to remind myself of actions that are successful. 

Because......

I can AND I will!!