Already?

Remember my goal of staying between 1200 and 1500 calories a day? Well I didn't exceed it yesterday but came damn close. I had all of my food written down and packed (I take my lunch to work) to total 1220 calories. But in the break room a key lime pie appeared and I picked up a piece and ate it. Why oh why do I do this to myself??? I need to get to the root of this compulsion to eat whatever I see. It is taking a terrible toll on my body. Since I ate the pie, I didn't eat everything in my lunch so I got to a count of 1470, so technically I stayed with my goal but I am still upset about my "see it, eat it" compulsion.

I did weight myself this morning although I wasn't going to. I weighed 196.6 this morning...which is progress but maybe false hope. Don't know.

I hate the pictures of myself on this blog!!!!!

One day soon I am going to write down some things about myself and the lifestyle I live.

I am off to the gym and going to have a better food day today!!

I can, I will!!
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