Another Week End Almost Gone...

After that great weigh in of 189.8, I bounced right back up to 190.4 the next day, then 191.0 ever since.  I knew there would be a bounce back....always seems to be one.  Just have to hang in there until the scale decides to cooperate.    I was trying to give myself some non-scale encouragement, so I decided to measure my waist and see if there was any change.  To my utter delight, I have lost 3 inches off my waist and 1.5 inches off my hips since August.  Unfortunately, my chest measurement was not changed.  But I am happy and as everyone knows there is more than one way to measure weight loss progress.

I have been fighting my weight my whole life.  Yup, I was a chubby kid and wore the chubby sizes to prove it.  There have been times in my life when I have been reasonable and in the overweight category instead of obese.  My all time high weight was 223 about 20 years ago.  I lost weight then and have never gotten to that high of a weight again.  That is suppose to be unusual.  When people lose and regain, they usually regain more than they lost.  I really think I didn't because I am pretty physically active and have almost always walked and worked out in one fashion or another.  Unless I am going more than 4 floors up, I always take the stairs, I park far away from entrances, I always return my grocery cart...I really do all of those little things they recommend you do.  My worst problem is a bad habit of overeating.  And even that is not the like you would expect.  I eat a very healthy diet, lots of fruits and vegetables, whole grains, lean meats (mostly chicken and pork, very little beef),  fish and nuts.  So why am I fat??  I love candy and sweets and indulge way too much.  I don't think there is enough candy in the world to satisfy me.  And you can also eat too much of the healthy stuff.  Portion control is important no matter what the food is.

I am going to be 60 in April and would really like to finally tame this beast!!  You have no idea how much I wish I would have gotten this horrible problem under control 30 years ago.  Maybe my children would be in a different place.

Not only am I an obese person, I am the mother of a 41 year old morbidly obese man.  In fact he is well on the way to becoming the next person you read about in the paper that cannot fit through the door.  At least that is my fear of what will happen to him.  I feel that I have more or less set him up for this problem from the time he was a chubby baby.  I overfed him and helped him develop every damn fat cell he has.  I wish I could undo that damage.

I also have a daughter that is obese, but not morbidly yet anyway.  I was a terrible mother and I cannot change history so they are paying the price.  Not quite fair that they are paying for my rotten choices.